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Diary of a 19-year old.

As I'm doing my annual end-of-summer cleaning, I managed to dig through piles of papers and half empty notebooks. As I read through them, what was just piles of scribbles a few minutes prior turned into a trip down memory lane session... Hello, 19 year-old self.

Today, I share with you the things in my head almost 3 years ago :)

"We were so close, but now so far
Never knew that I would scar.
Never knew there'd be such pain,
Always thought you'd end this rain.
Always assumed that you'd be there,
Someone who would always love and care.
Someone who always knew what to say,
The reason why a simple smile would make my day.
The reason why I always wished upon a shooting star,
We were so close but now so far."
-4/2008

"Do you feel good when I suffer?
Do you feel high when you leave me alone?
Do you find bliss to hear me cry?
Was I not beautiful enough?

I know you loved me, I know you did."
-8/2008

Reading these feelings again made me realize how exaggerated one can get. Hahaha.

5 days til' 22. *sigh*

Marla Miniano

"When people say they don't want to get into a relationship, it should never be taken at a face value because it is never really the whole truth. It is usually a vast collection of issues and fears and complications, forced to the surface to conceal one tiny hope lurking underneath it all: that someday, somebody will come along to discover and accept and strengthen that feeble hope."