Sorry To The Beautiful Man

Sorry To The Beautiful Man

A beautiful man is what you are,
One who shines brighter than any other star.
I keep pushing you away but you keep coming back,
Can’t you see; wanting you is what I lack?
You never left me any scar nor any pain,
I was never dragged by you to some sort of fast lane.
You always want to care, always want to love,
And I’m the girl who can’t fully give you what was mentioned above.
I admire how you want to give a girl everything and more,
But with deepest apologies, I can’t force a heart to beat like yours.

Venus-- 4/09

Hello Seattle Spring.

3 months and some odd days of not writing on this thing! Wow. I remember how I would almost write everyday, even it's just about non-sense things. Well here I am. Saturday morning of Seattle Spring. I'm glad the sun has finally showed up "properly". My best friend called me while I was still sleeping. Ignored the first call and let it roll to voicemail. Second call, I answered in case it was an emergency-- she just wanted to talk... hahaha. She thought I'd be awake since it's sunny outside and I'd be up to doing something. I WAS gonna go jogging but decided to fuck it-- I don't get to sleep-in during the week.

Second quarter into Seattle U. Mind-boggling classes, new-ish friends, intriguing conversations. But one thing remains, I still procrastinate A LOT... more than ever. Leaving 10-page essays to the last minute-- okay, so not really last minute but you get my drift. But hey, a B for a 400-level course is not too shabby :) Classes this quarter: Public Speaking, Theology, Dynamics of Communication. All equally interesting.

What to do now:
Clean room
Laundry
Online homework
Start working on self-intro speech
Taxes (dammitttt!)