Dreams

Do they really mean anything?

I'm talking about dreams as in when you lay down in bed at night, fall asleep and then your head is just filled with random, weird thoughts. And then when you wake up in the morning, you feel puzzled because you wonder why you dreamt of such things and if they ever mean anything.

I've been having vivid dreams for the past 2 weeks. Vivid as in I remember every single detail when I wake up the next morning. I dreamt of something last week. A week after, I went to Barnes & Noble with a friend and looked at this dream book where it tells you what your dreams might mean. I checked and accurately enough, my dream meant exactly what it had described in the book. (Come to think of it, I should purchase that book!)

I slept at about 2:30am last night (err.. morning) and woke up at 8am because the dream bugged me so much. And for the past 6 hours or so, it's still in my head and it's constantly on repeat. No matter how hard I try to block it out, my brain keeps rewinding. It's really frustrating and the sucky thing is that I don't want to talk about it with my friends coz I'm really not up for their overprotective talks.


FUDGE IT.

Spent the day with a few familiar gnarly faces.

(picture courtesy of Hakson)

I was debating whether to go or not for today’s Seattle Tour… after all, I’ve been to 7 Seattle Tours already. After contemplating for an hour this morning, I decided to just go since I’ve been stuck at home for the past few days. I just basically followed the current IPMs do their thing. They’ve matured, work-wise since the last time I saw them. Hehehe.

The tour as a whole didn’t really work out as planned because it was raining, hailing and at some points, snowing. Yes, this is Seattle Spring! It was freezing and I regret not wearing more layers. My aunt told me to bring my waterproof vest but didn’t listen to her… so yeah.

First stop was Westlake Center (what else is new?!) for lunch. Then we walked to Pacific Place and stayed there for half an hour. Walked around with Elsha and went to three shops (J.Crew, Express and United Colors of Benetton). She bought an item from each of them!! She spent over $200 in a course of 30 minutes. My gosh, that girl! But it was really fun watching her though; I lived vicariously through her for that half hour 

Then we walked to Pike Place Market but half way there, we forgot that we left Hakson at Bose… Hahaha. Pike Place was like any other Seattle Tour. Pit-stop at “the-first-Starbucks shop-ever” then walked in the market for a bit then walked back to the bus stop to go to Seattle Center.

Seattle Center was rather empty. Took pictures and played a game by the fountain. Played the coin game and poor Yi-Chen got tackled by two boys (one of them being Jeremy) and fell down. Funny though. :p

Then took the students back on campus and got there about 5:45. Then we all went to Sushi Land for dinner. There were 11 of us: me, Elsha, Yi-Chen, Yasu, Paul, Frederick, Hakson, Melissa, Jeremy, Erika and Paul’s girlfriend (I forgot her name ) When we got there, I told the hostess, “party of 11” and her face was indescribable. Haha. Since there were a lot of us, there was no way we were able to sit all together so we got separated: 7 people at the booth and 4 people at the stools. It became a “Couples vs. Singles” theme. At the booth, there were: Yi-Chen and Jeremy, Frederick and Melissa, Paul and his girlfriend (I really feel bad for forgetting her name!) and Hakson (he was the only single at the Couples Booth, lol). Then at the stools were: me, Yasu, Erika and Elsha.

Then we all went our separate ways after dinner.

Today was a good day. I laughed soooo much! I missed the IPMs a lot so hanging out with them today was awesome. From the bus ride to Downtown to the way back home, the laugher was non-stop!

Some funny lines:

(in the bus)

Elsha: “My phone is a Smart phone”
Venus: “Oh, so you’re calling my phone dumb?!”
Paul: HAHAHA!!

Venus: (talking to Elsha, pointing at Paul) “Did she go?”
Elsha: “Hahaha, SHE?!”
Paul: “Uh, she without the S!”
Elsha: “HAHAHA, she without the “ASS”

Yi-Chen: (pointing at my bag) “That’s so cute, Ven..a”
Elsha: “HAHAHA, Venus without the “ASS!”

(in the car on the way home)

Erika: (proud) “Everybody, Elsha is sleeping over at my house!”
Everyone: “Oooohhh!”
Erika: “She will be a matured person tomorrow”
Yi-Chen: “Enjoy! You will get everything you asked for in life”
(voices and laughter overlapping)

(after everyone got dropped off)

Yasu: “You know Erika… is she really a lesbian?”
Venus: "HAHAHAHA"

Laughter is good.

Musique

Where You Are- Jessica Simpson & Nick Lachey

Jessica: “Take me where you are, where you and I will be together, once again, we’ll be dancing in the moonlight… just like we used to do and you’ll be smiling back at me and only then will I be free, where I can be, where you are”

Nick: “Now baby there are times when selfishly, I'm wishing that you were here with me, so I can wipe the tears from your eyes and make you see that every night while you are dreaming I'm here to guard you from afar”

Both: “And anytime I feel alone, I close my eyes and dream of where you are”

So Perfect- MYMP

“With the sight of you getting closer, I catch my breath, I catch my breath… you’re an angel in disguise… so perfect, so perfect… I wanted this all my life.”

Say it Again- Marie’ Digby

“Say it again for me, coz I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I’m the only one who blows your mind… say it again for me, it’s like the whole world stops to listen when you tell me you’re in love… say it again.”

Trouble Sleeping- Corinne Bailey Rae

“It’s constant compromise between thinking and breathing”

“Could it be I’m suffering, because I never give in, won’t say that I’m falling in love… tell me I don’t seem myself couldn’t I been something else… don’t say I’m falling in love”

You Picked Me- A Fine Frenzy

“Like an apple on a tree, hiding out behind the leaves, I was difficult to reach, but you picked me. Like a shell on a beach, just another pretty piece, I was difficult to see but you picked me.”

Everywhere I go- Katharine McPhee

“It’s funny how you think you really know yourself, like you would never lose yourself to someone else and I was up to thinking it was all about you and me… silly, silly me”

“Everywhere I go, no matter I do boy, I just can’t get you out of my head. So it annoys me, you wasn’t man enough to come and tell me, that I was never the one… like you said I was”

“If you would’ve only told me how you really felt, I could’ve put my feelings into someone else. But I was busy thinking that’s where I was supposed to be… silly, silly me. But there was something about you that I couldn’t resist… can’t put my finger on it but whatever it is…”

Not With You- Cassie

“And I love it when it’s just the two of us lying around… and I can’t help I want you to my self, the feeling’s getting stronger now… so I hope you feel the way I feel.”

Sweetest Sin- Jessica Simpson

“Your lips upon my lips… your fingers tips on my finger tips… your skin upon my skin… would be the sweetest sin.”

Look After You- The Fray

“You’ve begun to feel like home…”

Emotion- BeeGees/ Destiny’s Child

“I’ll cry me a river… that leads to your ocean.”

Holding On For You- Liberty X

“Sunshine fades to gray, the second I'm away. Minutes turn to hours, without you”

“I struggle through the day, pretend that I'm okay. I make believe that you're here, beside me”

Across the Universe- The Beatles

“Sounds of laughter shades of earth are ringing. Through my open views inviting and inciting me, limitless undying love which shines around me like a million suns, it calls me on and on across the universe”

With You- Jessica Simpson

“I relate to you naturally, everybody else just fades away. Sometimes, it’s hard to breathe… just knowing you found me”

Waiting (Save Your Life)- Omnisoul

“At times you’ve hated me, ain’t that how love should be… so just let me save your life”

Forget About Me- Little Bit

“Why don’t you love me, the way I loved you… it feels so crazy, coz I don’t know what I did it to you. If you’re gonna hurt me, then do it quickly… coz I’m tired of crying. If you don’t wanna stick around then baby forget about me”

Once in a Lifetime- Freestyle

“It's not like I’m running outta time… I'm taking everything in stride… It's just I never thought I'd find… what would make me change my mind. I know that what I've found is once in a lifetime, I know there's no way out coz it’s once in a lifetime”

No Day but Today- Rent Soundtrack

“There’s only us… there’s only this. Forget regret, or life is yours to miss. No other course, no other way… No day but today”

Dunzo!

Took my last final EVER at Shoreline :) :(

Yes, mixed feelings. As much as I feel (somewhat) accomplished, I don't want to leave SCC. It has become my comfort zone and my familiar place. And soon it's time for "big school" and I'm really not ready. I'm so glad I have 6 months to prepare for that.

My finals went okay:
Speech Comm.- Not to sound too cocky but it was a pretty easy final. This was my lay-back-and-relax class.

First Aid- Part of the exam was take home (100 MCQ's) and about 10 short answer questions in class. Final grades are posted... did pretty well I must say. I'm not gonna miss skill days, I'll tell you that.

Communications- The quarter as a whole, I feel blah. But I do know for sure that my grades are inconsistent. I just hope I reach at least a 3.0. The final was, again, blah. I know I did well for the MCQ's as I did the practice quizzes 3 times each! Not too sure about the short answer questions.

So what to do now?... Job hunt!! I really need to get a job before May so I could save up for L.A. Coz if I don't save up, I might not be able to go :( (Which reminds me, I have to submit my tax returns... fudge.)

*Sigh* 2 more bloody years of college!

"I love you too"

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It’s one of those times when you just have to believe that everything is going to be okay. I feel like I’m the one to blame. It pains me to hear my mom cry on the other end of the phone.

Mom, I will be okay, I want you to take care of yourself. I’m a grown up now, one who you taught heck of a lot to survive in this world. Next time you see me, I’ll hopefully be a successful person, one who you’ll be very proud of.

Never take someone’s presence for granted, cherish every moment.

We’ll pass through this challenge. See you soon, mom. I love you.

When Insomnia takes its toll... (nah, not really).

Do you think you can get through it without answering "I don't know"?
Get through what?

Are you involved with anyone?
"ish". Haha.

Where do you wish you were right now?
Next to him.

What should you be doing right now?
NOT what I’m doing right now.

Does sex mean love?
No.

What do you believe is a true saying about life?
"Life's what you make it".

Are you a bad influence?
Hahaha, I'd like to think not.

Who has had the most influence on you (good)?
Different people for various reasons :)

Night out or night in?
Mostly night ins. Night outs, depends who I'm with.

Single forever with a great family or no family and your soul mate?
First option... but heck, NEITHER!! Hello.

What is your favorite game?
Tetris and Tekken! Haha.

What is your favorite book?
Confessions of a Shopaholic (I've read it 3 times).

Do you know how to change a tire?
Nope.

What item could you not go without during the day?
iPod and phone.

Would you share a drink with a stranger?
No.

Who was the last person you visited in the hospital?
Errr...

In the past week have you gotten kissed?
Yes.

Have you ever lied about something important to your boyfriend/girlfriend?
Maybe white lies, but nothing extreme.

Would you rather be in a permanent relationship or play the field?
Permanent.

How long ago did you hug someone?
Today.

Do you think its right for straight guys to get their tongue pierced?
I guess, but it’s not very attractive.

Have you ever thrown shoes on a telephone wire?
No.

Do you ever think about any of your ex's?
He crosses my mind but not that way.

Need to get something off your chest? Are you going to?
Not really.

How do you feel about your life right now?
It has its ups and downs but I'm happy :)

What kind of car do you drive?
Either the Passport or the soccer mom van :)

What characteristic do you despise the most?
Arrogance, cockiness, liar, stuck up, etc.

Ever get so drunk you don't remember what you did?
Nuh uh.

Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to?
No.

How's the relationship between you and your ex?
No contact.

Do you talk dirty to people?
Hahaha. Funny.

Do you think you can make it on a "Moment of Truth?"
I hate that show!!

Anyone upset you lately?
No.

Last person you talked to on the phone?
Either Anthony the bank guy or Roxanne.

Can you easily tell if someone's fake?
Sometimes. Some people are just really good at being fake.

Do you think you’re dumb?
I have my moments.

What could be done to make things better for you?
I like things the way there are right now.

Do you love someone (not family or friends) at the moment?
Love is too big of a word right now. But I LIKE :)

How's your heart?
It's at the right place :)

How many people have you kissed since new years?
One

Ever kiss someone with a name starting with a C?
Yes, ish.

Have you ever kissed someone whose name starts with an R?
No… but his last name starts with an R though, does that count? Hahaha.

First time you kissed the last person you kissed?
Hahahaha. In his own words, "too soon".

Can you keep a secret?
Sure.

Are you happy with your living arrangement?
It's okay, it's free :)

Would you live with someone without marrying them?
Sure.

Do you have trust issues?
Yeahuh.

Is it easier to forgive or forget?
Forgive, I have difficulties forgetting.

Who is a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to?
You, yes YOU :p

What is today’s date?
March 4, 2008

Where will you be 12 hours from now?
Getting out of class.

Is it easy for others to make you feel intimidated?
Not so much anymore.

Do you know what you are going to wear tomorrow?
Not yet.

Where are your friends at?
Scattered around the world.

Are you on a desktop or laptop?
Laptop.

Does anyone hate you for no reason?
I hope not.

Can you make yourself cry?
If there’s a reason.

What are you planning to do today?
My day has ended. But I’ll tell you what I did. Speech class, hung out with Nikko, Communications class, got dropped off home by Nikko, emailed people, ate my late lunch, napped for 20 minutes, talked to my dad, talked to Roxanne, homework, watched Idol… bla bla bla.

Play an instrument?
Nah.

Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?
No, I don’t want to risk what’s going to happen in the future (the present). Haha.

What are your favorite colors?
Purple, Black, White, Green and Yellow.

Have you ever had your nails done?
Yes

Have you ever passed out?
Yes, for a brief 5 seconds.

What are you doing tomorrow?
First Aid and Speech Comm. Classes.

Are you easily confused?
Sometimes.

Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?
I’d like to think so :p

Have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
No, nothing to that extreme. I just wasn’t liked. Hahaha.

Is your current hair straight?
Sort of.

What color are your socks right now?
Bare feet.

Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it?
Yeah, it was one of those diaries where you get your friends to write in it. I want it back!!

Do you fall for people easily?
Depends how they screw with my mind… hahaha, keeeeding.

Everything happens for a reason?
YES.

Have you ever dated someone more than once?
What does “dating” even mean?

Who have you texted in the last 72 hours?
Roxanne, Nikko, Dad

Last thing you got in the mail?
My scissors thingamajiggy.

Do you find members of the opposite sex confusing?
Not all of them.

Do you usually invite a lot of people to your house to hang out?
Nah. Back in Cyprus though I had a lot of sleepovers.

Who were the last people to hang out at your house?
Roxanne.

Who do you call more than anyone else?
Roxanne and Nikko.

Have you done anything bad in the last week?
Yes.

Whose car did you last drive?
My uncle’s.

Does anyone like you?
I hope so or I’ll kick him in the crotch. Hahaha.

Is it going somewhere with them?
I’d like to think so.

Who was the last person you argued with?
Playful argument with Nikko. Hey, I thought you’d always let me win, you butthead.

Name something you love?
I’m not very difficult to please. I love the little things like watching Friends re-runs, hot shower, working out and not giving up in the middle of it, brownies, seeing a Facebook wall message from my friends, etc.

When was the last date you went on?
Valentine’s.

Do you want to fall in love?
Eventually.

Look After You

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"You are the bearer of unconditional things,
You held your breath, and the door for me.

Thanks for your patience."