Fears and Dreams: Life in General

Life is not something that should be perfect. I always say, perfection is a flaw in itself (or was it Jolie who said something similar to that?--anyhoo, lol). In life having everything the way you want sounds nice but to get to that state, you have to work hard for it. Well, at least I have/do.

Lately, something's been really bothering me and I don't even want to fixate or put an emphasis to it but I guess paranoia's just taking a toll on me. I know I shouldn't worry and it's probably nothing. And I feel like the more I make a big deal out of it, the more chance of it that it's becoming true so no more thinking about it!! And plus I don't want people who are close to me to get worried coz there's probably nothing to be worried about.

On the same note, I feel like I should live my life to the fullest. Not necessarily go bungee jumping or do crazy things but appreciate life more. Show those who are close to me that I love and care about them. Or just be happy that I was given this life to experience and all the aspects that come with it. I want to gain many experiences as much as I can. From falling in love to heartbreaks, from being high on a pedestal to hitting a low point. I want to travel, meet people, have kids, a husband and live in a house with that white picket fence. You never know when your journey in life is gonna end so why not dream of all the possibilities in the world? :)

Dreaming is not a bad thing coz it's free to dream. But reaching that dream isn't free, it's priceless. In my 19 years of life, I can confidently say that I've accomplished quite a lot. I grew up as a decent individual, thanks to my parents' nurturing. The most "rebellious" thing I've ever done was to break a curfew. But surely I wasn't the perfect daughter since school is not really my game. However I make the effort.

And now, I've never been so determined in my life to do well in everything. But along the way, I won't mind if something happens and I screw up coz screwing is a big part of life. It's when you learn. Overcoming and tackling challenges is the key.

[[[[I have no idea why I'm blabbing I should probably stop]]]]

C'est la vie.