My being pansy side.

I'm soooo tired... I'm not complaining. I'm just making a statement... hahaha, vagueness. I feel like I lost weight, LOL. Haven't been sleeping much plus I walk around 90% of the time during orientation days. Day 3 tomorrow. Not as intense but still lots of work. Oh well. C'est la vie.

People's first impressions of me are snobby, stuck up, bitchy, unapproachable and anything along those lines... Is it because of my lack of communication? (how ironic would that be since that's my major... hahaha) or is it how I communicate?... I really don't know... But whatever reason, I really hope people would change their negative impression of me. I love to help people and I'm very much approachable. Oh well. People don't know that I have a tendency to be fragile. I always tell my friends to create a tougher skin... but I find myself not doing that. I liked what my friend told me today "choose what you need to hear". So true. Maybe I'm just being pansy about my feelings and how people react to me. But I can't help it. Although I'm sometimes breaking inside, I don't like showing people my vulnerability. It's just not me. But sometimes I just reach my lowest point and break out.

Stress and I don't go well together. I noticed that I talk too fast when I'm stressed out and don't know what the hell I'm saying. And I snap at people and I don't like one bit of it. I feel bad.

Life's what you really make it.