This Ship Has Sailed.

The title had multiple meanings today:

*My somewhat new job is making me feel very different about myself. A good different which I like.

*Past failures will be my motivation to work harder from now on.

*And the weirdest thing happened when I woke up. My cell is usually on silent when I'm sleeping so there are no interruptions. Lol. I always check the time from my cell when I wake up so I did such when I woke up today. "1 missed call". I never expected to get a call from him. He was the last person I expected a call from. I was weirded out by it. I woke up at 9:45am and he called less than 15 mins before that. Anyhoo. After a few hours [by few I mean 2 hours], I texted him and pretended I didn't know the number (well it was more of my lack of certainty coz since I was so weirded out by it, I just wanted to make sure it was him):

Me: Who's this?
Him: It's ...., don't you remember me?
Me: Oh, hi. Sorry, my phonebook got wiped out.
Him: Really? But I still remember you [uhhh, what?!--no connection!] So what's up?
Me: Nothing much. Working and studying basically. How about you?
Him: Same thing as you.

Then that was it. Didn't reply back since he never asked anything else. Was that weird or what? I haven't heard from the guy in so long. I can't believe I actually pushed myself to him when he wasn't interested. I was thinking alot about it today. I was such a stupid girl back then. Maybe I still am... but ugh, seriously, thinking about it made me feel, I don't know. It's unexplainable! But yeah, what the heck does he want? [sorry for the harshness]

This ship has sailed... Ain't gonna let anyone rain on my parade.